"I Don't Know"

           "I understand that you are gay. But where is your relationship with Holy Spirit right now?"

There isn't one. Well, not one that I am aware of anymore. I don't know if I believe that there ever was 'a relationship'. Blunt. I know. But I don't really care to hide these thoughts anymore. I do not believe in the bible or that Jesus is god nor that the god of the bible is god. 

My next step was going to be quoting the bible verses of what that makes me. My favorite being 'an anti-christ'. But, I decided I would move on. 

So, what do I believe now? The answer is, I don't know. I'm going to stay open minded. The 'unknown' is what I believe. I believe there is too much that is unknown. And filling in the unknown blanks of life with god or aliens doesn't make it true. So, I will leave the blanks blank and give the answer, "I don't know". 

I can say I believe there is a spiritual essence to life. But still, its unknown. There might be a god who sits on a throne in a heaven slash alternate earth who loves me and has plans for all humanity. But, again, I don't know. 

I wanted to write this out because two people have already asked me this question. And so I felt to answer it on this blog. I'm not sure who will read this. And I'm not sure I plan to hand out the link if I ever come out of the closet in the gay way or the theological way. I think I'll let it sit here. Just like my beliefs.